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Wednesday, December 26, 2007


"Bless me father for I have sinned, it has been over fourteen years since my last confession." These are the words I said to the priest when I went to confession last week. I had only been one other time. My friend who goes said how great he always feels after he goes, I decided to give it a try. I gave things some thought and wrote down what I wanted to remember. Of my sins the one that the priest advised that I should work on was the one where I said that I have problems honoring my mother and father.

He gave me some advice. He said to try to work things out by clearing the slate, by drawing a line on the sand and not bringing the past into the situation. So I did just that. My mom had called to get together before Christmas, so I told her to come on the 23rd and that I would make her lunch.

She got here pretty much close to the time that I told her to. She normally arrives way early. She gave us gifts and we gave her some. She ate the food I had prepared like she had not eaten in three weeks. There was little conversation during lunch, because there was no room to get any words in, in between bites. She did not interact with the kids. The only time she even held the baby was once when she knocked him down. He (in my opinion) is a cutey so I have a hard time understanding how she could avoid holding him. Sophia tried to talk to her and she just ignored her. She sat on a chair in our living room for about another hour watching football and not speaking. She abruptly got up to leave and within a few minutes was gone without so much as a "Merry Christmas."

As far as my father goes, I just sent him a Christmas card with a photo of the kids. I did not write a letter or anything, I just wanted to open the door. It has been at least five years since I have seen my Dad. My last dealings with him were super taxing and I had pretty much closed the door forever.

Now that Sophia is getting older and starting to ask questions, I know I have to have some answers for her or at least I feel like I should have answers for her. She recently asked me if my mother was dead, because she did not know who she was. When my mom came for the Christmas visit, Sophia asked what her name was. Sophia is a super sweet kid that would love anybody, but my mom just seems so cold and soulless, like she did not even know who the kids were.

So have I fulfilled my pennance? Have I done what I should? Do I continue to hold out for answers or is this as good as it will get? Should I persue anything else with my father or just completely leave things in his court?

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Monday, December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas...

I hope that you all have a wonderful Christmas. I just wanted to share our Christmas card photo. It took about 20 shots, but I think it was worth it.

We all have these horrible colds right now. It makes it so hard to get things done. I finally got all of the gifts wrapped last night. I have not baked any cookies (except for a few that I baked for Bob's grandfather for Christmas). There is only so much I can do. I was just thankful to get all of my shopping done.

Sophia is in the Christmas pageant at church today. She is going to be a star. She has a gold dress, gold shoes and a gold star headband. She is so excited about it. I just hope she behaves. I am in charge of organizing half of the little stars. There is about a dozen stars, about 4o angels, 20 shepherds and sheep and just a few animals for the stable. An angel is by far the most popular thing to be.

After church we go to Bob's aunt's house. Tonight I am going to have one of Santa's elves deliver a gift to the kids (PJ's and a Christmas book). I want to start doing that every year. That way the kids can put on their PJ's for the ride home and be ready for bed when we get in.

Tomorrow morning Bob's parents will come over to wait for the kids to get up and then I make breakfast for everybody. Then we go over to Bob's parents for the rest of the day. Bob's parents got each of the kids something for the train garden so that they can put it up and then look forward to seeing that piece of the garden each year.

I hope that you all have a wonderful Christmas filled with love and happiness!


Sunday, December 09, 2007

A little holiday spirit...

Last Wednesday (December 5th) we got in the neighborhood of 5 to 6 inches of snow. We had been planning for Bob to take off that day so that we could venture out for our Christmas tree. It ended up being a picture perfect day. Here in the mid-Atlantic region we generally don't get a ton of snow, so we were thrilled to be able to take some photos of this beautiful day. Thank God for the double stroller, because it worked great in the snow and when Sophia got tired it made it possible for us to transport the tree and the kids.
It was one of those, "It's a Wonderful Life" moments.